its really sad isnt it...?

yesterday i had a rather unusual day...

... it was good to be back rowing on school mornings; we're going to try and get a school quad happening... that'd be funny, davo along with shore and all them, cept we have a sum total of what, four rowers (well not yet, give us time)

i have my long johns back now, cept they are now sumwhat different... transformed rather
lol

they're now officially spedo joel murchandise... i cant believe i let them do that!! lol

well the early bus is still canceled!!! forest coachlines are wonderful arent they!!

so today during my 45 min wait, i had coffee with beth KC and hanni (it was good to finally match a face, to several stories, to a blog, to a name, to a person)...

so coffee was good, we made the long johns exchange finally, but they didnt have anything 2 eat or drink though because they had apparently just binged on pizza, lol...

finally taking time out to talk 2 beth was good, come to think of it, we've only ever spoken at church and youth group briefly... well anyway, time went sooo fast, i was keeping an eye on it though, because if i missed my school bus, i would have had to walk up 2 the corner of glen st & forest way, and waited for another bus at about 5;30...

so between two times lookin at the time, it went from 2:45 to 2:59!!! so then we headed off to school (she had 2 pick her younger bro up from mimosa), but i was like, meh, i should b fine, the bus is normally 20 min late...
well it turned out to not only be on time, but in fact early, so i arrived to school as the last bus was on its way out, then i suddenly bolted, signaled it down, then spent 2 min trying to convince the bus driver to radio the other bus down... he finally did then said "you better start running" (although he was heading the same direction)... so i bolted with my school bag, massive rowing bag and school folder... i ended up bolting for about a kilometer, then slowing it down to a run for about 500m until when i realised that it hadnt stopped... so then i saw another bus on the other side of the road... i jumped across the otha side and called it down, it turns out that fourtunatly it goes 2 terrey hills, its a forest high bus...

so i get on the bus all panting and a bit sweaty, with about 50 mL in my drink bottle...

anyway, i had a great afternoon afta that, i spent it with gordy, we chatted, it was really encouraging, great, wonderful, he's such a great guy...

and also, im completely over sat nite a week ago!!! everything is fine

im being challenged with humility and relying completely on god, asking for his wisdom and not my own...

i stayed up for a good part of the nite doin maths study, i got 2 bet around 10;30, then realised that there was more 2 do...

oh well, i g2g2 rowing :)

luke

todays addition to the bus stop pictures collection

ooo, i really have nothing to say, i just thought i would blog... :) luke

just thought i would say goodnight before i went to bed

well, i am about to go to sleep although i have to be awake in 6 hours...

life is interesting...

its good though, can't wait till holidays, although im already in denial about how short they are :'(...

i spent most of the night at weights for rowing, talking on msn, reading blogs and not to mention talking to mum for an hour about uni... its actually getting me excited!!

oh by the way my ten thousandth word is nolens-volens

anyway, im off, just remembered my quiet time is yet to be had, and i want to try and get some sleep so im off :)

luke

... sumtimes I wonder if anyone will eva luv me... but then i remember that god is there, and thats got to count for a heck of a lot... and he also has a plan for who i will end up with, my dad prays for them every night, i think i should too... its exciting to know (or not know rather) whats installed for me... all i know is that there is no way it will not be good... sure there will be hard times where i feel like giving up, but in the long run it will be worth it...

i've got 5 min until i have to leave for the bus... so im just waiting and wasting time...

the sunrise was good this morning...

i'm listening to frank sinatra's unforgettable at the moment :), theres a sax solo at the moment... as elis pymble would say a "sleezy sax"... good times, oo tim buckley has just logged on, i will say a hi and a bi to him!!

luke

well, it is almost certain, i am going to get the lowest HSC mark in the family!!!




well the context on that is that i am pretty sure that i am not going to continue on with school next for years 11 and 12;

i have come to quite a discovery, and i have been doing my research, and i now have narrowed it down to two degrees, a BA from Maquarie majoring in Society, Life and Learning or a BA from Curtin University majoring in Internet Studies or in Internet Design...

so hopefully that will be my next two years full time or 3 years part time... scary stuff...

i'm also thinking of maybe doing the Certificate of Ministry (from Anglican Youthworks) (because i'm really interested in that too) or a Diploma of Music (major piano, at the Con) part time (ie four subjects a year) ...

mmm... i'm still working it out, but i think i have figured out what i want to do with this next part of my life, what i want to do now is talk to people in these ocupations and find out what it is like being in those careers, pro's & con's etc... shud b interesting, better than wasting two years at school...

tonight was interesting at church, it felt different, good different, it hasn't felt like this for a long while, i think it partly felt like people didn't care about the people around them, it was about them and god :), and god was the one and only major focus (kinda makes sense)...

i am actually really getting excited about life!! i am so lucky :)
i cant wait to see what waits for me next!!!

it'll be interesting to see where me and everyone else is in 6 months, i rekon there is going to be a lot of change, and a lot of important decisions...

mmm, i'm listening to john mayer at the moment, its been a while... maybe i shall put him in my palm tomorro, yes, i must...

joel wrote a really good song that he showed us today, gee constructive critisism is hard..!! especially if you really like what you are critisising, and you're just trying to make it better...

joel and i have decided to set aside some time soon and just go through and sort out what we're doing with vocals, its quite interesting really, we have very different voices, but suprisingly they work really well together... that is when we do it properly...

i dont really have much to say, im just rambling on i guess, avoiding going to bed and stopping john mayer...

its quite sad that people are reaching their 100'000th words and stuff, and im still below 10'000, oh well, thats their interesting lives, and i enjoy reading almost every word of it, it doesnt really matter because this is my blog anyway, for my thoughts...

i really enjoy sunday nights, probably my best night of the week, actually i would say the best night of my week... i don't have rowing in the morning :) and i hung out with my friends tonight, set aside time at home to worship god in private by enjoying spending time with him on the piano, and then went to church and enjoyed worshiping him with others :), god is good... i am reading through the psalms and samuel 1 & 2 at the moment, and its quite suprising how simmilar i am to david (especially with the whole emotion swings, and the whole tough to good time changes constantly, and changing my mind about things mid chapter of my life)...

anyway i must be off to bed :)

luke

mmm, I think I've been a slack blogger, I haven't really blogged properly in over a week...
so that I shall do now... I hope

well, this week has been really good,
I had state music camp, which was fun, amazing people (well some of them, the others were just weird)
I reckon soul survivor should do a worship musicians conference (kind of like passion for your name I guess) but different, it'd b for musicians & worship leaders at church's, to equip and encourage them...

there are so many personal jokes that no-one back at home understands, all I can say is "snaps for the personal jokes, snaps for the personal jokes"

at the moment I'm listening to storm by lifehouse, its really good, I must play it one day... mmm

life is interesting, I'm already ova what happened last Saturday, it seems so long ago, so much has happened, but I'm not, I don't know, I'm slow at moving on

if only life was simple and everyone could just talk everything through without being worried about people taking things personally or the wrong way

meh, its life, u get over it

I guess the good reason about it being hard is that once u do something right, it means so much more, you have had to conquer the odds and come through strong...

I think life is really good actually, when I think about it, I'm really lucky... I'm sitting here well fed, fit, listening to music, using a computer, access to the internet, friends and family that care about me, I have my bed hovering above me, water in the drink bottle beside me, light coming from the ceiling at from the clear sky, with a view of the mountains in one window, the sea in the other, a guitar on my lap, mobile phone in my pocket, with my keyboard and sound gear packed up beside me in the cupboard, PDA and camera on the desk etc... I'm really lucky, fortunate, blessed, whatever

especially lucky because I have god on my side, and he loves me, and also because I have philosophy by Ben folds five playing

oops, I accident's pressed publish!!

oh well, I'm editing it now :)

mmm, where was I, oh rite that's it

I'm kind of glad no one really reads my blog because they'd have no idea what I'm on about, constantly changing subjects :)

oh yeah, I noticed Beth has now been added to the blog waterhole, yay for her!

its so simple now, I can almost read everyone's blogs from the same spot :)

its starting to get dark now, and I've been procastinating for almost an hour so far, avoiding catching up on school work from the past six weeks,

I've found out that I can start my uni degree this holidays, and depending on how the first few subjects go, I might stay at school next year and do uni only part time, I would like to finish school, I just wonder if I could b bothered...

I wonder if anyone else but me has noticed that the ABC radio 702AM has used the into to the Ben folds song "rocking the suburbs" as the intro to their news program...? it ruins a good song, using it on the ABC... Actually I don't mind the ABC as much as I used to, I guess anything is better than R & B!!! 102.5 FM (the classical station) isn't too bad actually, good to sleep to, westies dad has actually got me into it!

mmm, I really cant concentrate on one thing at a time!!!

bloggin off, luke

another 1 i took ages ago, thou havnt blogged yet...

LIVING IN 2004
You know you're living in 2004 when...

1. You accidentally enter your password on the microwave.

2. You haven't played solitaire with real cards in years.

3. You have a list of 15 phone numbers to reach your family of 3.

4. You e-mail your mate who works at the desk next to you.

5. Your reason for not staying in touch with friends is that they do not have e-mail addresses.

6. When you go home after a long day at work you still answer the phone in a business manner.

7. When you make phone calls from home, you accidentally dial "0" or "9" to get an outside line.

8. You've sat at the same desk for four years and worked for three different companies.

10. You learn about your redundancy on the 11 o'clock news.

11. Your boss doesn't have the ability to do your job.

12. Contractors out number permanent staff and are more likely to get long-service awards.

AND THE REAL CLINCHERS ARE...

13. You read this entire list, and kept nodding and smiling.

14. As you read this list, you think about forwarding it to your “friends".

15. You got this email from a friend that never talks to you anymore, except to send you jokes from the net.

16. You are too busy to notice there was no No. 9.

17. You actually scrolled back up to check that there wasn't a No.9.

18. And now you are laughing at yourself!

mmm, so much fun
camp was great!! "...snaps for camp..."
so much to blog about, tomorrow

so many personal jokes and memories, so much fun...

but most importantly, i relaxed a bit, there were no stresses, although i was really sick and almost fainted, it was fine because i could relax my mind, nothing to worry about :)

blog more 2morrow,
luke

well, a new day has started, i wonder what it will bring?

never have i been at such a loss for words than when i needed them the most...

dont you hate it when all you can think about is how you are going to say something, and then when you go to say it, your stuck
... today was one of the most emotional days of my life, i experience some of the strongest and most opposite emotions at the same time...

...we had the 10 year reunion EPA (or SOPA rather) 2nite, when i was meant to be on stage crew, i ended up having a very interesting night...

... it started off with me finally talking to jodie, and resulted in me running around lional wyatts oval a couple of times, then collapsing onto my knees in the middle...

is it normal to cry when your not sad?? things had gone almost the best they could (second best really) and i found it so emotionally draining, maybe im an emotion addict like hannah ("emotionals anonymous")

maybe i over use the elipsis'?

the weird thing now is, that i dont feel emotionally drained, now rather i feel quite extactic

... i didnt know how to react, i had convinced myself that as long as nothing changed, nothing was ruined, i would be happy with the result...

but i was happy, i am, things are so much clearer for me now

... i was happy with the result, but my mind kept on spinning, it couldnt stop thinking about what would happen if i hadnt been stuck for words, or if i had better timing...

now i regret telling as many people as i did

but sometimes you cant help yourself, the feeling is so amazing that you want to tell the world

... the whole night leading up to it i couldnt sit still, i was walking behind the cyclorama, back and fourth, figiting, then when it came close, i continued to put it off, then i stood up to do it and at first i went to sit down, but instead i soliered on and continued to go for it...

i dont regret doing it, i would have regretted not doing it more

at such a loss for words, i didnt make things seen special enough, but would that have changed things? it doesnt matter, i wasnt aiming for one answer or another, i just wanted to know

hugs are good... i need more hugging in my life... you can tell so much from a hug...

... i had obviously been inturpurating the wrong signals, i had taken things the wrong way...

life is good, god is good, and he loves me

... i did a lot of thinking on that oval, and have been doing a lot here, i just sat down for half an hour and prayed, read the bible and played the guitar...

maybe its just not meant to be me, maybe i should stay like this forever, and focus on other things... but i love everything attached to this though

... i discovered on the oval how good god is, and how life is so small in the scheme of things, though he cares, he is the god of every part of my life, i am thankful for to night and all that happened...

i hope i havnt spoiled anything for anyone else

thank you god, for being who you are, for being so perfect... tonight kind of reminded me of you, the way things were done, the response i got was done in a way that reminded me such of you, it was soft, tender, thoughtful, and loving, it was doing what was best for me, and ignoring all my shortcomings
mmm, maybe i should follow in example, i should continue to love as i have been loved, be concious of those around me

!!! but thats what made me want this so much, thats exactly it, those are the characteristics that i wanted to be a part of my life, i wanted that so badly that i looked in the wrong place i suppose...? im more confused than ever... or am i?

gee when i look into my reflection, i see a glimps of who i am, i get scared

rach* was commenting about the palms and david and all, and moodswings, and to be honest, that is what my quiet times have consisted of recently 1,2 Samuel and the Psalms, maybe i better get some of the gospels into my head because i can see that i am becoming increasingly like david...


*Quote From Friday, June 18, 2004
...I like reading the Psalms. Makes me think that PMS isn't generd specific, since David has moodswings too. But God's always the same awesome God. He never changes, yeterday, today and forever....it could almost be a song, couldn't it??
posted by Rachel @ 10:42 AM

so help me god if i dont have any news to blog tomorrow night, good or bad, or indifferent, actually however things go, i think that i will be better tomorrow night than i have been in ages...
luke

well, today we had the EPA or sopa rather as james just corrected me ("gaffa tape, it is the force)
and we had a matinee performance, and then kempo and i had lunch, we had some chips and wedges, and chelsey bun, then nat was on her way off home, so we decided to walk her home...
it must've sounded a bit odd, walking up behind her and saying, "hey, we're bored, du want someone to walk you home"... mmm i wonder

then james and i had an adventure around the streets of belrose (or not streets rather)

luke

it was an amazing sunrise this morning... :)
luke

"HIS PLANS ENDURE FOREVER; HIS PURPOSES LAST ETERNALLY." PSALM 33:11

i should be more concious of what he wants me to be doing, instead of hoping that he will bless what im doing wether he wants it or not... god please help, and though i would love ever so dearly to ask you to give something to me, may i lay it down in your hands... however incredibly hard... you're a champ

have you ever wondered what it is that sometimes ust makes ou depressed and just eventually feel like crying yourself to sleep, but you cant cry, you dont know how, you dont know what about, or if it would do any help?

life is massive, and theres no way i can even contemplate trying to contain it, and master it, and i cannot make it do my will, to think that is even incredibly nieve and selfish...

i have been faced with small oppertunities to do something, and what someone could inturpurate (or some people have inturperated) as signs... i wonder wether to take them, or am i just makig it up in my mind?

gee love is great, look at what it does to people, that tiny feeling of knowing that your freindship has got to a point, and that a statement has been made and you both know how much your valued... you can see it in their faces, it changes everything about them , suddenly the world is so much more worth it...but why is it so hard not to seek value from that, its so much harder to seek value from god?

i am so tired that i have been typing with my eyes shut besuase my eyelids are tired, i hope this means that i will sleep well :)

luke

im to tired to blog properly, ive had a massive day, heaps of interesting stuff has happened...

but all i can say is that something has begun, and it will cause joy, happiness, pain, hurt, sorrow, friendships, strengths and weeknesses, and by george, it will be big...

i will expand later, but trust me on this one

...
luke

i had a great chat with lozza today,
its really good when you know that there is someone going through simmilar emotions to you, or at least is as frusterated as you... you dont see yourself in such a bad or hopeless light anymore...

it was also great to step out of the main auditorium for the first time in ages, we got some fresh air...

today i was running on adreniline, until it run out, and now i am so buggered, i only had 1.5 hours sleep last nite, if i was lucky, ooo pies are ready, b bak soon

i think im losing my love for food, i havnt been as hungry lately, which scares me, maybe my body is finally adjusting to my greater need of energy...?

my weight is weird
at the begining of the year i weighed 82
then two months later i was 74
another month and i was 70
then a week later 72.5
another fourtnight and i was 71
and now im back to 73... im weird

also, i think things are clearing up a bit for me now, which is cool, i think im starting to understand where i am at with people :)

luke

boredom
well, i have discovered a new meaning for boredom!!! yay, and the new definition was my day today :)

tiresome
im getting tireder by the minute! zzzzzzz

long daysbum
pretty self explanitory aye :)

all the rest
well the rest of my life aye...
well i should stop using the word well
yesterday, was terrible, i forgot literaly everything (well almost, i remembered my school shirt, bag and pencil case, oh and my belt)
but EVERYTHING ELSOME else (including my mind)

today was good, although i was incredibly tired
i bumed around so much at glen street
and jo, pip, nat and fi were only there for like an 8th of my day, though it was good to chat none the less

i was lookin through my sent messages, whilst deleting them and i realised that over the past fourtnight i have been sending messages to jodie and she hasnt replied, how rude of her... then i asked pete b what her number was, and i had confused 471 for 417 :(
actually come to think of it, she put it in my phone...!

even scaryier, what if i was stalked !! again !!!

most of the messages were random, some legistical, but a couple were saying that i am incredibly confused, and i would luv 2 chat... hope that no random got the wrong idea...

mmm, what else... oh yeah, it was pete hayes' birthday 2day, so i took him out for saussage rolls and coffee, and now i have no money for food :(, but it was good, i never see him midweek :)... pip lock forgot it was his birthday...

its jonnos to morro, jesses in a week and nats, on a week friday, flip, how many people want to be born!!

i find it so anoying, when there is someone that i really need to talk to, but never get the chance... (and no the elipsis doesnt mean that im flirting, and with who anyway, my blog?)

(Dear diary... hey good looking.... diary, i just felt like saying: damn , you are fine :))

what was i gonna say, oh, i forgot... mmm... wasting time

i wonder if neone will read this, coz people dont read the ones that i dont care about, just the ones that i forget is personal... A BIG HELLO TO THE SKIM READERS OUT THERE!!

oh, i g2g soon, and i am so hungry, headachy too

all i wanna say is YOURE ALL RIGHT IM IN LOVE... got you there skim readers!!! muahahaha

mmm, i really want 2 talk 2 sum1 in particular, i wont say because people will assume that it is about something completely different to what it is... so i will start my sentence and not finish it, as that seems to anoy every1 (especially me :))

neway, back off to the epa, mmm, if im not needed, i will pick the guitar back up and finish riting that song i started...

luke

ps, wish me luck ;)

its funny how one liners get more comments :)

dont you hate it when you just cant find things!!!

The filing cabinet of Blondie's brain

i was just reading kirsty's blog, and she was basicly talking about the issue of dating and basicly all i can say is i completely agree, im facing the same tribulations at the moment, and i think that God has created us in his image, thus when we are concious of it, we can realise that we are actually feeling for almost everyone, its just to determine what type of feelings they are, and just to put it into gods hands what relationships we have, and in saying that i dont mean "dont take action, god will do it", because he has also created us as active living beings, he wants us to experience life... my problem is just finding the happy medium, if there is one

luke

well, its 4 in the morning, and im already packed for rowin, i must be getting quicker...
i have a long day ahead of me, im sure of that, though i am completely unsure of what my day will actually contain... kinda exciting i guess...?

its been really good getting to know myself better over the last while, ive been doing a lot of thinking...

i was working yesterday from 4:30am until 7:30pm, i went straight from rowing onto helping my sister with her DT major work... building a caravan... exciting :) though very long and time consuming... it was good to have some people helping yesterday, it saved me weeks of work, and especially my sister and mum...

i cant wait to see where me and my friends will be in a years time, well at least i hope that we will have some change, i really hope that through good times and hard times we will come out in a year or so's time, having broken down all the barriers, solved problems, become closer but less exclusive... i really hope that the quality of our relationships will be the thing drawing our age group into the church, because thats really what i see as our ministry, it is to reach our friends, because in my case... they are the unreached minority...

well, lifes good, its a lot to look forward to though, but i can tell you that the day to day routine sometimes gets you down :-D.
but sometimes i guess you just have to take up your pride, you preferences, your ideals and just put them in you back pack and keep climbing, and rising to the challenge...

sometimes it feels like the world is on a hold, like there are so many people i see trying to make a difference, but... i really have to go now, i hope today isnt to confusing, oh well

blogging off

luke

howie's halfpipe: How much of your body is geek friendly?

well i thought i'd give it a try...

See if you can type your name with your:

NOSE:luke
ELBOW: luker
TONGUE:l0uke
CHIN: l,uker4
EYES CLOSED AND ONE FINGER: luks
BACK OF HAND:l,ukmed3
PAML:lukle
MOUSE:luke
WRIST: lo7uiker

well im quite a geek arent i,
meh
now i have to wash my houth out and clean my keyboard, fun game though

luke

OLDCATMAN-2

this is funny...
luke

I guess a good thing about being a complete and utter insomniac, is when I cant sleep, I think, I think a lot, life is amazing, its amazing how you can go through your day and not think about it, we as a human race are so lucky... And I read, a lot of interesting stuff really, I also read peoples blogs, they're interesting, lozza had a really interesting post about not hiding behind masks, and many other people had good posts to, and I play the guitar, its good living upstairs now, not worry to much about waking people up...

I'm really enjoying life at the moment, although its really confusing and I'm getting more and more knackered as the days go by, I'm really appreciating what I have though...

nature has been my biggest refresher recently, I've been loving the water in the mornings and the sunrises, they're cool, and in the afternoons when I don't have rowing, ill often ignore my school work for a while and go for a run and explore some of nature and have my quiet time in the bush, at a lookout, or just at a park

people are so confusing, though I am just sitting and watching my life now, so its not so bad, all I really care about is making sure that I'm loving people, that people know that I've made an effort to come and say hi, to chat...

I'm working on breaking down physical barriers, comfort zones, because for so many people their love language is through physical contact and they don't get enough, and for those who's primary love language is not that its still very valid and helpful relationship building, it shows that they're worth going out of the way for...

I barely know my emotions at the moment, I'm just trying to make sure that no one else is dictating them though...

I think that if there was a bit more loving going on it would be great for my friends, so what if some of it turns into bf/gf relationships, what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger, and for you to be confident as a person, you need to know all sides of you and your friends, I think I could actually safely say that more of that type of relationships in my age group at church would be healthy, as long as it didn't go to far...

life is so amazing...

friends are great and god is better, and I'm damn lucky to have some great, close friends that I can share things with... Not to mention the greatest friend of all :)...

I wonder who reads these blogs? Its so weird, my old blog was private and I would put so much in it... I just try and be conscious that this is public and not to put to much in... But on the other hand, what do I have to hide, as long as I don't put anything that would be damaging to anyone, that could turn into gossip, it should all be fine... And honestly if people want to jump to conclusions about who I am, then go for it, that's their decision, but unfortunately (or fortunately) there is no reading between the lines in my life, I say what I mean, and if that offends anyone or states something about my character, then so be it...

I met Ryan for the first time today, its good to match a face and personality with a whole heap of posts, I would never have guessed it to be him though... I wonder if people didn't know me and they read my blog, would they ever guess what I am like, I hope I appear to be the same me everywhere... coz I am

I haven't seen anyone from casper in ages, depressing, hope Curtis will end up coming 2 state music camp, good on him for getting the main part in stage artz new production...

ill have to try and remember to see if I could get a lift with Kelly to state music camp, because she's going up after the EPA, and I only just realize that they cross over... Silly me

I wont be back from music camp until the 24th, I wonder what time I arrive home, I hope I will be able to tutor and not re schedule...

birthdays, birthday's, they're everywhere, firstly Pete's is this Wednesday, were goin 2 have coffee after school, (and after my ortho appointment, how cool would it be if he supprised me and took my braces off :)), then jonnos the next day on Thursday, I wont see him till Friday though, if not later :(... Then I'm straight off to music camp and don't get back until the day b4 Nat's birthday....

that's another weird thing, the girls were going on about 16 and never been kissed, is that a big thing for girls? Is it a aim to be kissed before the age of 16? Or were they just fooling around with Nat...

which brings me onto cruel questions, like Bec Buckley came up 2 me (quite rudely may I add, I was in the middle of a conversation with stanno, meh u get over it) and said "Luke, you see we have a little dilemmar, well natty is 16 on the 25th and ..."
its just like when one of ur mates asks you if you think his girlfriend is hot and if you say yes, he's like "I'm gonna kill u, don't u dare try and steal her!!" and if you say no, then he's like "I'm gonna kill u, she's damn hot, u prick" ... Just cruel questions, and the worst thing is that silence can be interpreted as an answer on its own, so guess wot I did, I just blushed and patted her on the head...

on Friday I arrived home and saw a letter for me that had come through the post, and it contained a small piece of paper, saying with compliments, and it had two free hoyts adult movie passes, and I'm like score, but why the heck have I received them...

meh, I'm going to attempt to sleep now, wish me luck...

nightio

I am so happy!!! i had six hours sleep last night!!!
by the time i went to bed last night, i hadnt slept in over 43 hours, i was so knackered!!
so i wrote a really short blog, so now i will blog properly for yesterday... after breakfast... bak in 20

immmm bak, make it half an hour, that was nice, i had two bannas, four pices of rasin toast, two bowls of nutri-grain, and one bowl of oats mixed with just right... i like my food

yeah, where was i...
oh yeah, i think last night went really well, but unfourtunatly i had a massive headache and i was really buggered and i couldnt find my glasses, but otherwise i think it was good, god turned up, we hung out together, people seemed to enjoy it and some people made a massive decision...

neway, im so distracted, im never going to finish this post properly, so that'll do for now :)

WHY AM I NOT IN BED!!!!!!!

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i thought i might post these comments, seeing as my one was about a blog length any and it continues from earlier :) luke

Its amazing how full grown adults can be so pathetic and make a deal over petty things withouth realising that the way they're acting makes them look more like a small winging child...

this is a very short blog for I shall agree with all those who said i need more sleep (the problem isnt getting to bed early, its falling asleep :< )

neway, my day was long, very long, infact i almost forgot that adam and i missed the school bus this morning...

stretch was being lazy again and slept into 8 at my house instead of going to rowing...

its hard staying single... like i really want to stay single for a while, keep myself focused on what really matters (its okay, its not hard because of hormones, its because i have really good friendships and oppertunities, and amazing people etc... but mainly that feeling inside that makes you want to have someone to give all you can too, thus my point on trying to focus all that giving into other things...)

another thing is i think there are heaps of things that i dont think most of the girls my age realise such as
===>> essentially all a bf/gf relationship is, is searching for someone that you would love to spend the rest of your life with,

===>> love isnt a feeling, so much as a commitment, like dont get me wrong, you can feel love its amazing but its not a mushy feeling, and its not how the person makes you feel, its a feeling that makes you want to be so slefless, its giving all you are to the person, and sometimes its not doing what is easy or convenient, its doing the best thing for them...

===>> at this age and stage in our lives, the real aim of our relationships is to be just like a really close friendship, its getting to know the person really well, experiencing good and bad times with them (because if a relationship is to find your life partner, you have to know which one of your friends fits the part best, and how can you know unless your really good friends)

===>> on that previous point, relationships done right can do nothing but strenghten friendships, they shouldnt break them appart, theres few things i hate more than when people regret, or try to forget, or belittle their previous relationships, look, no matter how you look at it, those good times were good times, and if your still friends, you can still cherish those good times as friends

===>> and also friendships should be strong enough to easily cope with relationship breakups, because the friendship is so strong...

===>> a relationship breakup isnt the end of the world because chances are, your not meant to be with most of your girlfriends, theres only one, and you have to discover that...

===>> another point is that people dont have to... wait i said this would be a short blog


neway, im sure to become an insomniac yet (if im not already)

luke

10 minutes until i can have more drugs...

...well, this morning i woke up at 2 after only having about 2 hours sleep, i woke up to the sound of my pillow falling 8 feet off the edge of my bed, subconciously i sent myself lunging over the edge and in the process hit my temple on the corner of the thing that stops you falling out of bed...

...then i finally got back to sleep despite the pain, and my alarm went off at 4, it shocked me and i hit my head really hard on the beam going accross my bed, but i continued to get ready for rowing, until the point where i could barely see, then i just poped some pills, grabbed my blanket and collapsed on the booby-trap-less lounge...

...i woke up again at 7 only to find out that not only did i miss rowing, but i was also very late for school; thus i rushed around like a mad dog, and ran out the door half ready, only to run into mum who said i should take the day off...

...it wasnt until i was midway to the bus stop that i realised how stupid this was, and i called mum, and i turned around to come back home...

1 min until i can have more drugs, oh this'll do

at least i dont have conjunctive itus anymore, and i have a bed, a great family and education, a place to worship, amazing friends, and food on the table

this morning i woke up and decided that since i couldnt sleep i would take a picture of the the sunrise :)...
it was good, i sat outside, had my quiet time, played guitar, and took some photos i have posted the photos here :)

Hey, heres todays random bus stop picture!!
luke

Hey, its 4:54 and i figured out this is the best time for me to blog :)
Gordy and I are hanging out this arvo, but westies over, so i mite see if we just wanna play basket ball over at the oval... otherwise today is a pretty boring day ahead of me, so thats all i have to say about that...

in other news i can say that i am quite happy because my SD card came yesterday and thats cool because i now have a lot of music and music videos on my palm :D **which means happy me**

well that was the toast popping so i g2g butter it while its warm,

luke




oooo, creed

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When a cat is dropped, it always lands on its feet, and when toast is dropped, it always lands buttered side down. "

Here it is all finally explained to us!!!
luke

Well, i havn't blogged today, so here i am :)

I was sitting in careers... incredibly bored listening to creed **sobs, they broke up on friday** and staring out the window, then i looked at some of pip locks pictures from soul... i sware i barely remember any of soul, i was so wasted for the whole of it, i was also kinda depressed, so i spent most of my time trying my hardest to put on a happy face, until the last night when finally i understood things, and, well long story, basicly i barely know what was happening the whole duration of soul and the pictures where kinda a reminda :)

then i was staring out of the window, and i started thinking how wonderful the world actually is!! like, we are so lucky, and i knew it, but i actually felt it, i ignored my humanness and just went wow... that was cool

its odd that aye, how u can b so lost in the human world that you "know" how lucky you are, but your never in a state of extacy about it!

well, for the rest of carreers tim and cass where talking about AFL, so i put both ear plugs in my ears and just listened to the music... the only problem was that eventually i got bored again... dont you hate that, when you feel like walking up another group (even if theyre your friends) and just saying, "hi, im ringing in"... i really felt like doing that sooo badly!!

anyway, thats all i have to say about my day

well actually westie (me mate as pip L would so rightly put it) is staying with me this week, starting this arvo, so thats kinda cool, i think i will relax a bit more, which is good, i wont get as stressed about things...

well im off, continuing to learn about how much i have to be thankful for... lifes crap, but gods better so, im like, meh, yeh, cool!!!

cant wait for the next thing life has installed for me... more good, bad, happy and sad times ahead, more friendships and relationship problems ahead, but, i think thats cool, i can handle that... because i am privilaged enough to handle that...

i cant wait to leave school though :P

luke



ooo yeah, wot photo should i post now...?

this one'll do


the sun's amazing, i rekon!!

Isn't it pathetic how people can go through life, day by day singing a tune about other peoples faults, but never ever recognising their own massive faults, staring straight in the eyes of those close to them, those who love them...

today i wore matching sox... just for the wedding (weddings r cool)!!

Peter Mark Hayes
Congradulations... your the first lukewise drama queen (or your a lukewise dramaqueen for the first time, go figure)

Presenting Drama Queen No. 1

meh, i think its useful, it kinda relates to what i was saying earlier in my mammoth post :)



The Soul Survivor Magazine Online: "April 2004

VERSE
For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
Psalm 139 v13-14

THOUGHT
Einstein was a scientist who wanted to understand the mind of God. He wanted to get into God's way of thinking, so that he could get some answers.

In fact, during the last 10 years of his life, Einstein frantically scribbled in notebook after notebook as he tried to work out his 'Theory of Everything' one equation that would explain everything from the movement of a single electron to the creation of life.

Time ran out for Einstein, but many scientists continue to work on this theory today.

Yet if we read Psalm 139 v13-14, we are told the answer. The theory of everything and the reason we exist can only be answered in God. It is God who created us - we are fearfully and wonderfully made. We are not made according to a recipe or mathematical formulae.

We are all unique and handcrafted by God, made in His image. You may be really familiar with the verses above. Perhaps you turn to Psalm 139 for a bit of comfort and security. That's great, because as we ponder life's mysteries, little else explains our existence. God has created us in an incredible way.

Psalm 139 is a personal and deeply felt expression of what David knew of God. David may have explained it as 'It's about how God knows me, how he surrounds me, how he has made me and how he tests me.'

And as we look at verses 13 and 14 it's about how God made us. Now Im a bit of a scientist at heart, so not only is the passage a source of great comfort, it also makes me marvel at the science of God the creator.

When I read a verse like the one above, I'm struck by the amazing complexity of the"

... i think insomnia is taking over my life...?

Well, I thought I would email, him to say, “Hello” or “can I borrow a DVD?”
But then I decided, I am really trying to avoid schoolwork

Friday, December 06, 2002
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I went to ISCF at the girl's school. Am I allowed to name it? What if I say something rude. Well it's the same one I went to yesterday, and seeing as I'm the only one who reads the blog (and perhaps my mother, if you are neither me or my mother e-mail me thomasw@ahill.com and say "Hello" or "Can I borrow a DVD?").

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also for the fans, heres a picture of spedo joel

and yet, another bus stop picture...
:)

bloguke

Treatments for Insomnia: "medical experts recommend napping in the early afternoon for no more than 30 minutes. "
muahahaha, so i am right, i always tell people that... and they laugh... poor me

Learn it in Your Sleep

mmm, maybe this could be my problem??

href="http://www.healthatoz.com/healthatoz/Atoz/dc/caz/ment/sled/sdinsomnia.html">a possible solution

damn, i need more sleep... but the question is how?

Well...mmm its been an interesting one so far today,
i barely slept last night... still feeling sick, im pretty sure its a stomache bug... not fun!
anyway i continued on to rowing, my coach told me to take the day off tomorrow, otherwise i would fall out of my boat (jee anna is a great coach... well actually all my coaches are great... my squad is so lucky)...

yesterday i had a lot of drugs; 2 heron, 2 Nurofen Plus, 2 tablets 4 back problems, 2 4 the nees, eye drops for conjunctive itus, and drugs for my sinuses... i really needed some sleeping ones to though :)

anyway, the best part about sickness is health, and the union of the two in the Marriage vows Is what we celebrated today.

of up to a we celebrated the union of Jill and Brent!! the wedding was great, probably one of the best ive ever seen (if not the best)



it was so cool! i cant wait to get married... i can probably see myself getting married really young and then not having enough money to go on a hunnymoon or anything, but i dont care, i just cant wait!!! to be made one with someone special, that i will spend the rest of my life with!!

pip lock was saying how she wants to go over to england for her wedding, in a cool church and all, and im like, that would b cool, but still im attached to the st steves green carpet, there are so many memories behind it, its not just a joining of two as one, its also a blessing and strenghtening of what is already there... it'll be cool whatever i do...

blogoodbye

(oh yeah, here is a bit of video from the wedding)

When?
This afternoon/night we went , we left at 4:30 and i only just got back then at 11!

What?
We were trudging along in soul team for a combined youth group event

We had subway on the way up, and chocolate saturdays from MicDowells on the way back home!
They were really open up there, it went really well, new friends, good times, and lots of people saying "youse"

Where? else but liverpool/cambletown



yeah it was good...mmm

neway my day was good, though i was feeling really sick and tired (being on drugs)

for all those spedo joel fans, he was there, and sexy as usual



its really anoying, because i am split between wishing i could hav hung out with friends 2nite, and really enjoying the soul team event... oh i love u friends (there you go, u feel loved)

i cant wait till sunday, when we have our first band practice in ages!!!
joel and i were reminicing 2nite

gordy spoke well and riley gave his testimony, i think matt lead really well 2, it was encouraging because i think the way he leaded really suited the people there and where they were at

:)

anyway, i have to b awake in 5 hours so i better get to bed... i hope i dont trow up tomorro morning, oh well, i can only hope!!

ciao

The University of Dublin science students have finally finished the digital clock they have been working on for 4 years.



This is a real clock, and it's quite clever. It even has the correct time!



Just click the link below!

INDUSTORIOUS CLOCK ||| MONO*CRAFTS

mmm, im sick again today
i almost threw up last night again, i havnt thrown up for six years though
again, i had no sleep, but today i was wise and took the much needed advice and i didnt go to rowing or school...
im getting more and more buggered, it felt so good to get some sleep...
i have conjunctive itus so im off to the pharmacy
isnt it such a wonderful day to be home, i might sit outside by the pool for a while...
this is exactly what i needed


this is some video tim took yetsterday in food tech, hes random...
PHOT0007.AVI

it is amazing how powerful that our tognues are
how it is so easy to say the wrong thing
That day after day we should be keeping in mind how powerful are things we say
so, my challenge for today is to be conscious of tongue
and thank god for second chances
cheers

hey, about that previous blog, yah...mmm sorry it was really random and. heck i scared myself, i was just having one of those days :D
hope i havnt scared anyone, neway, cheers, luke

why is life so damn hard?
there are so many unwritten rules, regulations, attitudes and expectations.
why isnt life straight and simple?
things that should just be so simple, human beings make complicated!
stuff like, man loves woman, woman loves man, man and woman marry
or man loves woman, woman doesnt love man, they talk, still best of friends
or god loves man, gives man woman and animals, man loves god
or god loves man, god creates man, god creates woman, god creates snake; snake decieve woman, woman betray man, god angry.
god willing to forgive generations and generations of pain, and sins, human accept the wonderful gift and live for eternity.
but its not like that rather it is
man loves woman, woman love man, past experiences stop both from telling eachother, man waits until he's sure, woman waits till man tells, man thinks that woman not love him, woman thinks that man doesnt love her,
man loves woman, woman dont love man, man go out on a limb to tell, so that she doesnt think that he ignoring her, friendship never the same
man loves woman, woman dont love man, man doesnt tell because he thinks that she'll hurt him
god loves man, offers man perfect gift, man use excuse after excuse to avoid the most wonderful gift!!

what is this world comming to
why is it that day after day we wear these masks hoping to find the right one that fits,
we love to loose and we loose by love,
the path is unclear, thus wrong path taken,
without these unwritten laws of humanity, murphey and his laws would not stand a chance.

would telling the straight out truth, living as the person that god created you to be, not hiding anything for fear of being turned down or our only chance at living "normal" life... would that be considered a cult, would people look down on it with disgust and say "what are they doing there, are they insane". would our childeren look down on us, like hippies.
it is impossible to even concieve attempting to live anything close to a divine life here one earth, but we keep on going, just in hope that one day it will catch on, and it will be come the norm

day by day we live out these lives, we do the jobs that we "want" to do, we have the friends that we "want" we wear the clothes that we "want", we watch reality tv in hope that we are "normal".
we go seaching through the world to find people worse than us, that we can compare ourselves to, yet we have competitions on who had the "least sleep" the "worst weekend" the "hardest maths test".
thousands of people were surveyed and the number of people said that they were above average to those around them way outnumbered those who said below (how is this possible?)
we look to be greater, we spend our live trying to impress our peers, our family, the opposite sex, the people at the beach, the shop attendent, our techers, the financial world, people at parties, the person next to you in the isle at wollies, those people walking their dogs on a sunday morning

the unthinkable has become the norm, two fourteen year-old girls raped at 10 am walking down a street in south africa, no ones eyes even trail off, let alone trying to help. is this because in south africa there are two women raped every two minutes on average?
thousands of children dying of starvation, while we buy our computers and gaming consoles, eat maccas and subscribe to magasines,
a person is shot in the streets of the USA and only a few people come out to see what the noise is

we ask ourselves what's this life for but we never explore it

there are thousands of people seeking truths but so few finding
people are considering themselves religious and spiritual but choosing what they like from different religions

there is a minority group who are happy with who they are, they dont want to be the best, they dont mind if no one cares, they have their friends and they are happy... but they go home at night, stay up through the night watching tv, searching the net, playing games trying to find some type of satisfaction, but seeking, they would never have used the word,

people are looking all looking for their little somewhere i belong but they never find it
prejiduce flys through our streets, through our schools, workplaces, lesiure and even our own minds

we are trapped in our own prision and trying to escape

our life, our love, our belives are decided by others, not ourselves

insults and bad news roles of the tougne like a christmas carol, though saying something nice is like an essay
we all mean well but society has altered us,

tens of thousands of people stuck on the gay scene and confused, people convinced that they are gay, but they're not born like that (although they dont like to admit it) it is something that society has imposed on them,

but in the end i am not satisfied, but i am content, i know that we are all fearfully and wonderfully made, but all made different, if the world was perfect, i would not be here,
if i am made to live a life of love then thats what i will try to do, i will not only accept the faults in humanity, but i will rejoyce for those people that i have, i must put myself lower on my priority list, i must love god, love my friends, and if i must live a life without a partner for now, or forever, then so it be, for i would rather have no one than for it not to be the right one,

but for now i must see what comes to me, and accept it

luke

no pets in the kitchen!

oh well the bell just ranbg, time for recess! fun!!

Letters From The Inside: letters, links and lack of love
Reading blogs today in food tech (such a waste of time {as apposed to waist} ) and read beths, this post is so true (the last part)
cheers

its not even four in the morning,
im kinda reminding myself of the lyrics for Frankie Miller Goes To Hollywood except i cant sleep all day...
i am getting run down, i have to cut down on commitments... but which ones?
and another significient question i would like to ask myself is, why the heck i am blogging at 4 in the morning?

something I've been realizing at the time is How it is considered an unacceptable to go off with a friend in the group without people thinking.
whereas used to be able to draw and talk with just one person and no one would think anything at all.
the amazing how the times have changed

now because of messenger and mobile phones, even the telephone , people can't have conversations like they used to

the only 1 on 1 conversations the people have is through these instruments of communication

So in everyday life people forget how to have conversations, or is it that they do not get the opportunities

is this right? to do too many relationships start off like this? added to wasting money on flirting through SMS? does this sound ridiculous? or does this sound much too familiar?

why can we not be straight with each other?

has this cyber life stolen from us bills communication skills?

is is the real life, or is this just fantasy , stuck in a landslide, no state from reality?

Open your eyes, look up to the sky and see

I'm just a real boy from a real family

why can't this world have simple communication?

cheers,
Luke