today was one of my favorite birthdays of all time, even though it wasn't my own...
billions of people around the world to celebrate an anirversairy of birth...
'twas a really good one...

im finaly back online

Starbucks Corporate Social Responsibility
Yay for starbicks, they are out for a good cause, if its the choice between them and gloria jeans then im definatly going starbucks

well today i did something that i did not really want to do, in fact it was one of the hardest things ive ever done,
but if i didnt do it i would have been being selfish, so i had to.

lifes decisions are so often hard

its taken me all day to come to terms with it

but the future looks brighter because of it, i can only hoe that this painful experience is a growing one... actually i am sure it is, because god brings all things to good for those who love him...

dear lord may i now trust in you...

well its in his hands, as its always been, but now its so surrendered

i wrote a song about it the other nite, im so thankful for music, its been such a gift to me expressing myself.

i think i handled things today in the most mature way yet, it was hard to stay strong though, i really had to keep reminding myself of gods promises

god is so good, its mind throttling to thing how small we are in the scheme of things, but he still cares




not in my strength...
luke

"‘SARAH…TURNED UPON ABRAHAM AND DEMANDED, ‘GET RID OF
THAT…GIRL AND HER SON.'" GENESIS 21:10 (TLB)

It was easy for Sarah to say ‘get rid’ ofthem! She
had no emotional investment in the deal! Abraham had
fathered this son whom he loved and who bore his
features. But just because you are willing to take responsibility for your actions, it does not mean there will not be painful consequences. Be careful where you lie down; getting up again may not be as easy as you think!

There are things in life you can give up effortlessly;
others take every ounce of grace and grit you have. It
is especially hard to give something up when you can
see yourself reflected in it: a job you love, a house
you are living in, a relationship you are involved in
can make you want to keep things as they are. But when
you have gone as far as you can with your Ishmael and
you are ready to see God’s promise fulfilled in your
life, you must be willing to relinquish anything that
will hold you back.

If you have ever wondered how Abraham could bear to
offer up his son Isaac as a sacrifice on Mount Moriah,
remember Ishmael. When you have given up one thing, it
is easier to give up another. When you see somebody
who really worships God, you might want to think twice
before calling them a fanatic. Remember, behind the ‘hallelujah’ there is often a sacrifice. Chances are, when you look in their past you will find an Ishmael they loved and had to let go. Is there a message here for you?

my hair is now short

"Would you tell me, please, which way i ought to go from here?"
"That depends a good deal on where you want to get to," said the cat.
"I don't much care where-" said alice.
"Then it doesn't matter which way you go," said the cat.
"-so long as i get somewhere," Alice added as an explanation.
"Oh, you're sure to do that," said the Cat, "if you only walk long enough." (Lewis Carroll)