well today i did something that i did not really want to do, in fact it was one of the hardest things ive ever done,
but if i didnt do it i would have been being selfish, so i had to.

lifes decisions are so often hard

its taken me all day to come to terms with it

but the future looks brighter because of it, i can only hoe that this painful experience is a growing one... actually i am sure it is, because god brings all things to good for those who love him...

dear lord may i now trust in you...

well its in his hands, as its always been, but now its so surrendered

i wrote a song about it the other nite, im so thankful for music, its been such a gift to me expressing myself.

i think i handled things today in the most mature way yet, it was hard to stay strong though, i really had to keep reminding myself of gods promises

god is so good, its mind throttling to thing how small we are in the scheme of things, but he still cares




not in my strength...
luke